My husband told me that he wishes I was having an affair, because it would better justify why I am divorcing him. It’s not the first time he’s said it. Once in desperation he even said I should go have an affair, and as long as I stay married to him he wouldn’t care. Crazy!  Bottom line, he would prefer I leave him for another man then for the legitimate concrete reasons plaguing our marriage.  So which is the lesser evil?  Is it an ego thing??

I must admit there were times I’ve thought to myself that it would be so much easier to go through my own divorce if I had another man to look forward to. That in itself would stop my husband from resisting, and help him come to terms with it (aka: let me go!) But I never traveled that path, and don’t intend to. 

I’ve read so many infidelity stories on this website and my heart goes out to all who have been hurt by a cheating spouse. It is terrible. I cannot grasp how someone in a marriage can let themselves fall victim to such behavior. It’s a cowardly backwards way out of a marriage, and severely disrespectful to a non-cheating spouse (and the children). I am proud that I have not cheated, and vow to maintain honesty and respect toward my husband until the day those papers are signed.  I feel guilty enough traveling this path for legitimate reasons, but at least I’ve maintained some dignity along the way.